For months now, I have had this sweet idea about what I am going to do next in terms of my music. When I plan, I tend to really plan. And so that is what I began to do. As you may have read in my last blog (which was absurdly vulnerable in my own opinion by the way) I was hyping up a fresh project that was said to be in the works and I had just launched a kickstarter for it. Moment of truth: while this 'project' has certainly been in the works all summer, it has not been in the way I was expecting whatsoever.
At the beginning of the summer, I would have said that I was hoping to be well on my way to recording and bringing to life a 6-7 song EP called "The Paradox Project" by this point in time. I had been planning to launch a kickstarter for about 2 months, I'd made a bomb video for it (you can check it out on my homepage), I began to reach out to producers, and all was going as 'planned'. My kickstarter launched in mid-June and at the time I sorta felt like I had just launched a toy spaceship into outer space. I don't really know how else to put it, but it was unsettling. Not to say I wasn't proud of my mission or my campaign or the video or my music, but I slowly began to realize that I wasn't sure what I wanted the outcome of this to be and if I had really done enough preparation to handle how large of project I was trying to take on. Long story short, I had not. And when $1 was all that this kickstarter had to show after a couple weeks of being active (hilariously awkward I know), it was confirmation that it was back to the drawing board.
It wasn't time yet.
So rather than collecting funds, recording, and whatever else this production would entail, I have spent the summer been re-writing and re-fining my songs and ideas. I have been waiting patiently for opportunities and seeking out life giving people and experiences in the waiting. I have been growing where I found myself planted. I also rekindled my love for playing out and meeting new faces, especially fellow artists. I have developed an absolute love for collaboration, and I now know it won't always just be the name "Leah Jacqueline" as the artist on upcoming singles. I have grown more as a person and an artist this summer more than I ever thought I would. And It did not look at all like I had planned. As the summer comes to a close, I feel extremely blessed that things did not go as I had planned. In reality, God's plans and God's timing are like seriously...
so much better. If you don't believe me, try surrendering an entire plan you had to Him. Whether it be a relationship, a project, plan for the future. It may be pruning at first, but it will be well worth it.
In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
I also want to shout out a friend of mine I met this summer as I know she can relate to this a bit as well. Her name is Ansley and she is incredibly talented, so yeah check her out:
With all that to say, I am still in the works of creating music for hope and healing. However, it is in His timing and not mine. More updates to come. Thank you so much for your support and for reading. If you are an artist who wants to share their music or story with me please shoot me an email. You are loved!